Higher Self

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Hey! So I wanted to write about how you can talk to your higher self and heal a situation that was emotionally traumatic.

The other day, I missed a shift at work, I thought I was working the next day. Then I see a missed call from my boss at 4:42 pm. That was odd because if I had missed a shift, it would have been closer to the previous hour, since that’s when I would have started. So I immediately think, I may have missed a shift, but I’m not certain. Then I check my schedule and see I indeed missed it. And it’s already 6:15 now, so there’s no point trying to call and see if I can still make it. My heart has dropped to the floor. I feel so mad at myself, just so pissed off that it happened. I start thinking, what if she fires me over this. I flashback to a different job, where I was an hour late and he made me go home, and I ended up quitting that job. I feel so embarrassed and ashamed, and feel bad that me missing the shift made it harder for my coworkers. I feel irresponsible and unreliable in my bosses eyes. I message her, and tell her I’m sorry. I explain why I missed it, granted I did have an exam the day before and had another shift as well. But it’s the second time it happened now so the feelings of shame and regret are even more amplified. I text my boyfriend, saying I don’t feel good. I don’t tell him what happened because I feel ashamed about it, and don’t know what he will think. Then something clicks.

I realize that even though I made a mistake, I don’t want to let it ruin my evening. I’m in control about how I feel about this situation. I think about what a friend would tell me to make me feel better, and decide to talk myself down from my higher self. She gives me a hug. She tells me my boss understands and empathizes. She tells me you’ve been balancing and going through a lot. She tells me you’ve been busy. She tells me it was a simple mistake. She tells me that it’s not worth getting so upset over. And I come back to myself feeling so loved. And I realize I don’t have to victimize myself. I can let it go and move on. I think about it in a different light, and think that actually, it was a good thing I missed it. It was a nice break and it gave me time to relax. I was able to stay in a calm state of mind, and was able to sleep better because I thought I didn’t have to work that shift. Sometimes, things happen for a reason, and because I’ve just recently been regaining my balance with sleeping and mental health and peace, it was important that I really stood strong in this energy. And so sometimes things have to go wrong in order for them to go right. And this perspective of looking at it as a ‘good thing’ was also from my higher self, however, it was as if my normal self and my higher self had merged. Sometimes, there is a duality, like in the beginning when I was literally talking to my higher self from my lower self, and sometimes, there is a union where we are fully submerged into our higher self and make decisions as her.

Working Hard

I wanted to write about working hard. I feel like it took me a while to realize the importance of it day in and day out. For a while I felt like I was searching for pleasure by putting in the least amount of effort possible. But this past year I have grown and matured in so many ways. I now see that achieving pleasure usually comes with pain! It comes from enduring moments that don’t feel that great, from pushing through those moments. When you push through difficulty, you get to a place of ease, your brain figures out what is doing, things get easier, and you feel joy, pleasure, emotional connection. You feel your strength, and in it, an irrevocable peace. You feel accomplished and your mind is at ease.

I’ve been actively doing things everyday that I find challenging. For the most part this includes yoga, reading, and running. With yoga, usually it’s hard for me to start. I always work it up so much in my head. The truth is it’s not as hard as I expect, and there’s always room for modification, and rest in postures I find too difficult. But the thing is, once you get going, you don’t really notice the difficulty, and rather you just feel the effects and respond to the movements you are doing. There are a multitude of sensations running through your body, and your in this globe of feeling, that you don’t notice the effort you are putting in for doing. Your mind becomes fixated, almost entranced by the yoga flow and you are a curious creature flowing through the movements. Before you know it, it’s over and you feel so good. It’s the same with reading. It takes a little longer to get into the swing, where it becomes easier, And at times it’s still tricky to understand/focus on what the writer is trying to convey. But once you pass the 20 page mark, you eyes are drifting and you are feeling everything the character are, and you feel alive and ready to experience the spectrum of human emotions and environments.

And by the end of the day after facing the challenges, you feel calm and accomplished. Our mind is only responding to what we put it through. And I believe the healthier stimulants are also the more challenging ones. So that’s why I have tried hard to fill my day with challenges. My brain and my body feel good when I do this. This is how I inevitably find pleasure. It isn’t by taking the easiest road possible. It’s by applying my self, feeling myself get stronger. Feeling my legs get strong, feeling my mind become more agile. That is where true satisfaction lies. And our life experience is largely up to us. I didn’t realize this until everyday I saw how much of my day was determined by me and me alone. So I have the responsibility to choose how that day goes. And for me, it’s putting in the hard work, so I can feel strong and at ease.

Thank-you

I just want to say thank-you to everyone who has been helping me through it all. I am so grateful. I want to help people after I go home. I am ah ah ah ah staying alive. (From that song). I am super grateful for the food being prepared for me so that I can live healthy. I feel tired, but I know I’m gonna make it through this and live.

I’ve been learning so much and I have made friends that I love and enjoy being around. A lesson I’ve learned is that I need to live for myself. I need to live because I want to live. So many times, and I think you guys can relate, I would wake up and go to work for other people, instead of working hard for myself. Lately, all I’ve been doing is working hard to live for myself. I have been getting the help I need. I don’t feel scared, I feel brave now. There were times when I felt scared but now I feel so strong. Just like my grandma told me to be. I will be back again soon to write another post. ❤️ Thank-you

Also, I don’t edit my blogs too excessively because imperfection is important for my mental health. I feel it is more important to get my message out.

Courageous

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Hey hey hey. So I wanted to take the time to write about how to really enjoy the things. Naturally, our brains give in to fear so many times a day that if we counted it would make us nauseous. Again, it’s just a hardwiring thing, something about survival and part of what makes us human. Yet, we have the power, the free will everyday to conciously step away from this porgramming and step into courage. It’s something that we have to remind ourselves of so much throughout any given day, but it is more than possible and often it just takes that little reminder and decision to move forward with tenacity. It’s one of the most healthiest rules we can live by. It expands our experience and makes it so much more enjoyable. It takes effort and it’s not always easy though. It takes practice before we can get to a place of lving through sustained courage, because like many other values we want to be automatic, we have to build the neural pathways first.

We become by doing, by conciously making the decisons everyday and acting through that frame of mind. That is the only way we can become the type of person we want to be. If we have been building bad habits, well they are going to be our default ways of beings until we act enough times through a positve lens instead. The actions we take everyday lead to the person who we see ourselves as and who others view us as. We can only become a kind, compassinate person by living that everyday, showing those acts towards others. We can’t just say , oh I am a very nice person and then be inconsiderate of other people’s feelings day in and day out. Because that is not the truth. The truth of who we are is what we decide to do everyday. All of the little decisions make us who we really are, whether we like it or not.

So back to fearlessness, think of an example of an activity you often do. It can be a creative hobby , a sport, or anything in between. Even your job. Now, contrast how differently it felt when you were doing that activity with fear in your mind, versus how you felt when you did it bravely. When you you were brave, you weren’t worried about the outcome were you? You just decided to let go and see how it went. You decided that you knew how , you had a deep self-belief in your wisdom and your abilites and you let that guide you. You were rooted and connected to your soul, and focused on yourself, rather than what other people thought. You weren’t worried about what could go wrong, instead you were invigorated and carried by a forward momentum and inner knowing that you were doing something new and different this time. And it felt big and free. And unconventional. And after you maybe even recieved the due recognition. but who cares about accollades cause it felt so good right? Side note: it better not have been for the glory, it better have been for self-discovery. I like dancing, and realized that I got so much better when I stop worrying about how I looked, and instead when I did it my way, tooks chances, and exteneded the movements. And let me tell you it feels so much better to dance that way. I feel like this whole world of creativity opened up to me when I decided to dance boldly. I also feel so free.

bold

/bōld/

adjective

  1. 1.(of a person, action, or idea) showing an ability to take risks; confident and courageous.”a bold attempt to solve the crisis”

So yes, I really feel we are free to what calls to us when we are courageous, because we decide we aren’t worried about the what ifs. And I like the word fearless as well, but I feel it is not always accurate. I do think we need to completely forget about fear at some moments to really live, but I also think sometimes those fears are still going to be in the back of our heads and we need to act anyway. A quote that helps me understand is “Courage is not the absence of fear, rather it is the realization that something is more important than fear.” We need to be fueled by a certain inspirtation and yearning for something deeper, for a richer experience, so that we can follow through with courageous acts. We need to feel the importance of wanting to live to our fullest potential, so much so that fear becomes small in our worries. We need to get to a place where we are more worried about what would happen if we stayed stuck in our fears, rather than worried about what could go right.

When we act from our inner reserves of courage that are always within us, we can do what we really want to do. We get to be who we really want to, and we get to discover all that we can be. It helps us to realize that life is really ours after all, and wakes us up to the true divine miracles that we are. It allows us to sink into our unique abilites and let them really shine. We are so much more talented, creative and knowledge than we ever really give ourselves credit for. Our inner light is something that needs to be stoked by the ability to push through boundaries, the fuel that our inner energy and strength can create. If you are at a loss still, being courageous is usually doing something you wouldn’t, something bold. Remember that its always worth it to be brave. Fortune favours the brave!

Why we shouldn’t worry about Money

Oh my goodness! Money can be so stressful, can’t it? Sometimes it feels like it;s the key to life, key to success, and if you don’t have it handled there is something wrong with you.

The past few months, I have been seriously pretty stressed about money. I felt like I never had enough and everyone else had it so easily. I felt like I just couldn’t manifest it for myself and that it was all that mattered. And why do I get myself into these negative spirals! Because that’s not even half true. It’s not easy for many people to get money, and if its they have worked hard to get there. It’s not all that matters, in fact it should be at the end of our lists and priorities instead of the top.

Because, lately i fell like there’s a much better way to frame it. I’m just focusing on myself and my health, and I truly believe that money, no matter how long it takes, will be a natural by-product of feeling good. Feeling good should be the main priority, and having fun, doing what you love. Money shouldn’t be on pour mind most days, if we can get there. I know it can be hard not to think about, but I’m telling you it really doesn’t matter. Technically, if you have zero dollars or 1 million dollars, the fact is you are still alive. You have freedom regardless, to go where you want and do what you want. You could even book a trip somewhere still, and trust that the money will come back to you if you are in natural flow with the universe and doing what is your calling, involving helping others.

And that is such a truth- when you are connected to your soul through your actions, the universe shows up for you and does give you money, in many ways, and often unexpected way. That is what I truly believe because I have experienced it. When you surrender and stop seeing money as a limitation, and just do what you feel called to do, then you will be supported. I know that.

Asking for help… can be hard

I feel like so often as young adults, we expect ourselves to figure out everything on our own. We worked hard to get to a place where we could stand on our own two feet, to no longer rely on our parents so we could embrace a more beautiful, independent life. We foster a lot of pride from this ability, and from the efforts we put in everyday to make sure we can in fact, survive on our own. We want to be able to support ourselves, to feel like we don’t owe someone our time, or our energy anymore. Or so that we don’t have to feel obliged to answer to certain people when we really don’t want to. Yes, as young adults we have, and continue to work hard to remain stable in this newly acquired freedom. We recognize that we have to work hard, but that’s okay because everyday we are living our own lives that we chose for ourselves, and no longer have to succumb to a life that was controlled/ chosen for us in some sense.

If you are like me, you may be even very stubborn to the end of wanting your own life that you have created, and that alone, and you don’t want to give that up so much that you continue to sacrifice on certain things, and continue to get through some very hard days, just so that you can call your life 100% your own, so you don’t have to answer to anyone unless you choose to. Because you don’t want to rely on anyone , such as your parents, because along with relying on them there comes obligations to that, right? So sometimes, even when I am really down on money, or have a really bad emotional day, I won’t share what I’m going through with my parents. Not because they wouldn’t help, and not even because they would expect something in return, but out of my own stubbornness in wanting to stick it out for myself. And in a way, so I can prove to myself how strong I really am in times of difficulty. I’m sure many of you can relate, I mean you must – or we would all still be living with our parents ! lol.

We choose the harder road because we know it was make us grow, and we will be fully living, and we know it will make us able (and strong enough) to feel the true essence of life, and to enjoy some wonderful adventures. It is only natural for us to go it on our own. And trust me it is so worth it, for those of you still living with the parents.

Yet, there’s something wrong with this equation, there’s something missing. And that is the idea that most parents want the absolute best for their children, even if they don’t act it or say it. And they are willing to help. SO in those times of dire stress and brinks of disaster, why should we subject ourselves to that, when there another option – to ask for just a little help? It absolutely does not mean that by asking for help from an elder(not just parents, a grandparent, an uncle etc) that we owe them, from then until next month every spare moment of our time. Or, it does not mean that we have to do all of their household cleaning and cooking for a month. It just means that we are only human, only just beginning to learn all of the ins and outs of truly being an adult, and we need a little help along the way because we don’t want to get exhausted before we have even made a dent in it. I think we are best suited to let go of our pride and ego of what we have worked to set up for ourselves, and admit that sometimes, that hard work is still not good enough to meet our deeper needs, and we need help after all. The worst they could do is say no, which they probably won’t. I used to think differently, but now I think, if someone is in the position to help me, why not ask? We are all blessed with completely different gifts and abilities, so I think it would be pretty hard for everyone to have category of what they need. Maybe that’s why we were all put here in such close proximity, to help each other. It feels good to be the helper, and it also feels good to be helped. So why not relax and surrender to what feels good. I believe that is one of our many divine callings as beings of this earth, to live out the truth of what it means to give and receive. What a harmonious energy it is to be in, if handled correctly and not taken advantage of. Only ask for help when you really need it of course, not just at any time. If we ask too much, then it causes an imbalance of energy. But if we ask only we need to, this re balances the energies back to a natural state. If nobody asked for help, a lot of people would be suffering a lot more, and for no good reason. And once you are humbled enough to ask for help, you will see it wasn’t greedy at all of you; that you are doing enough and being enough. You will feel so good and so much less stressed, and actually you will be more inspired and ready to tackle life for yourself again, to keep supporting yourself on your own.

Making your way through personal storms and coming out of them actually shining

So I haven’t written a post for a while. This is because of the holidays, and after the holidays I came face to face with the realization that everything in my life, especially my personal relationships, weren’t as perfect as I thought they were. In fact, my love relationship was far from it. And it was the avoidance and unwillingness to accept the reality of it, to address it that really led me deeper into decline. Sometimes, peoples’ relationships seem so perfect from the outside. Little do we know half of the people are struggling so much.

So I decided to really, finally, accept and own what was wrong, including my own part in it. I am a very positive person, so this is why I was so reluctant to see there were major issues. And avoiding them was only breaking my heart more, putting me in turmoil, making me not able to trust my feelings. Avoidance, from my recent experience, thrust my emotions into chaos, instead of calming them. I finally, one day after getting quite mad, decided it was time to accept them. It was time to stop blaming others and choose to see the bigger picture of the situation. Because the truth is, more often than not, when we are unhappy about a partnership, its not because of all those little things we fight over. It’s something deeper and further reaching that we haven’t quite understood yet… because we have done so much avoiding after all ! Of course we don’t know what’s wrong. But I found the deeper issue was much bigger things that I wanted for myself. One of them to move. One of them to get more respect from my partner.And a few others.

And the only way I could see that was by asking spirit and my angels to help. That is the only way I got through it. And I pulled 2 oracle cards after 4 straight hour of crying/thinking/crying. And You know what I pulled? 2 cards. The first: ACCEPTANCE. The Second: Reward Yourself. And I realized I had been so focused on doing so much, on being there for everyone, for everyone but myself. And this is why I’m so huge on compassion, because it really is the root of a lot of our issues, that is – when we lack self-compassion. And I just cried with joy then and thanked the angels for showing me. ANd I realized in that moment that the divine forces don’t want us to work too hard on our individual, guided paths. That is unnnatural and will not help anyone in the end. They want us to rest a lot, so we can take aligned action and focused energy on only a handful of goals. OR maybe even just one. And yet I thought taking aligned, spiritually influenced action meant doing things you don’t want to do, so long as it is the right thing. But that is NOT true. We need to stop and really tune in, true divine influence will tell us to slow down, to listen, to rest, and then wait even a little longer before acting. True divine power is there to support us, and wants us to feel good , to feel even amazing, when we are doing our work. It’s wisdom knows that nothing good will come of one of us working too hard or too much.

So, I took that time to do a recap of the past 4 weeks in the span of 2 minutes, and realized how much I had worked, for myself and others, how much I had contributed to uplifting others. And I realized wow, I do deserve to reward myself. And the truth is – more often than we think, we all deserve to reward ourselves. Even if we are studying, in the future that work is going to help someone, so you deserve to reward yourself. Within means, of course. But even just taking a day and doing things you love is so miraculous. It sets you up for such a wonderful week, and month too.

So what I’m trying to say is if you are going through a hard time, accept the situation for what it is, and look back and appreciate all you have done, in small and big ways, and take the time and resources to really truly reward yourself. Feel this reward course through your veins. This is how you can come out of some very dark times shining. Your future self will thank you a thousand times over for it. I promise you!

Thanks for reading :)))

Purity

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Purity. I think it is so important to keep a sense of purity. Purity is when we see things for what they are, when we accept life and people for what they are. When we don’t hold onto assumptions, hidden motives, or judgments. Purity takes time, as we first have to release everything in our hearts that is impure, that which is really holding us back. Jealousy, selfishness, laziness, competitiveness, greediness, instant gratification, manipulation, and judgement are all ways of impurely being. When we hold these types of energies, sometimes unknowingly (they take a lot of inner processing to fix), we are really only hurting ourselves. THis energy is within us, and even if it is directed at someone else, we are still absorbing a large percentage of it. We know what is pure and impure, yet to actually act and think this way is much harder. The reason is because we have to change our programming. We have to change our thought processes that have been developed by our own choices and habits, as well as the ones society and experiences have shaped us to have. We have so many neural pathways, and these get strengthened everyday by the thoughts and actions we feed. We can even feed them by ignoring them. That is why they are so hard for us to change and get rid of. I’m going to give you a simple tool for when you notice these thoughts coming to you. It takes a lot of awareness though! But everyone can do this. Because we feel so much better when we can be pure, such as being genuinely kind and caring towards someone.

The technique is to replace impure thoughts with the opposite when you are aware you acting/thinking from the wrong place. Your idea of the counter thought to jealousy (for example) may be different from mine, but this is just a guideline. Build your awareness first, be mindful, and then you can administer this process.

Jealousy >> Replace with being happy and celebratory towards others

Judgment>> When you find yourself being critical, try to understand that person and accept them, everyone is human!

Competition>> When you feel the need to compete with someone, focus inwards instead and try to grow personally, what areas can you improve yourself, regardless of where everybody else is at in life?

Manipulation>>When you get the urge to manipulate someone, even in a small way, try to harness yin. This is an energy of releasing, allowing and letting go. Let people be.

Laziness>> Work hard. This one is simple. Recognize you were being lazy and do something productive, all the while being loving and kind towards yourself. Don’t overwork yourself, find a balance.

Greediness>> Replace this with gratefulness. Start to name all of the things you have. It will take you a while to get through everything, and you won’t feel the need to yearn for more.

Dopamine seeking>> Creativity is a great defense for this. Create something. You will feel much more fulfilled. It is hard at first to do, but remember we are rebuilding healthy neural pathways, so it will get easier the more you do it and you will build a habit.

There are so many more you could come up with! Identify an impure thought and come up with a solution to a pure way of thinking instead! It’s actually really fun. You could journal about this on your own if you like. It’s important to have self-compassion during this process, as we may fail at times and find it difficult at the beginning.

Have a wonderful day!

Libra rising insights

This posts targets libras but is honestly good for anybody.

It was so funny I was taking an uber on the way to see my boyfriend. I was talking to the driver, and you know when someone strikes you with how calm they are. I was just saying random shit and he wasn’t judging and just listening completely. even though I didn’t know him! some people are just pure wow. Purtiy is something im working on. So we kept talking and he mentioned that its okay, I don’t have to like you and you don’t have to like me and nobody has to make each other like them. he was talking about other people, and I was just like wow he totally just assessed that about me and he was spot on. Because the thing is, I try hard to be agreeable, to get along, and generally to get people to like me. Even im sure I do it without knowing. But hold on – making people like me was so lodged in my subconscious, that I was inclined to disagree completely with him. But actually, he’s the one who is right. no matter how nice you are, how down to earth you try to be, how much you try to relate to someone, some people just aren’t going to like you. and there’s nothing you can do about it. and the sooner you accept it the better. you just need to get on with you life and stop thinking about these meaningless things! you can still be in the same room, still doing your thing, and both of you be at peace whilst knowing you are not their cup of tea.

So I guess what I learned from that is that its completely okay and normal that people don’t like you. it more than likely is triggering something within themselves, just like how we ourselves get triggered by others. we don’t have to force being nice to everyone. sometimes we just aren’t meant to mesh with someone. I think the sooner we stop caring and focus on our own beautiful selves and family and friends, the better. actually, lately since i had this realization, I had a further wonderful thought that if someone doesn’t like me, its a good thing because it means I’m unique. idk why or if you agree. anyway I have to go! Love you guys

Conserving Energy

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YO everybodaaayy! OMG I am so tired! I work three days straights and then get a break but oh man those three days take a lot out of me. Yet, somehow every thursday I am one notch less exhausted than last thursday. I’m pretty sure its because consciously I decided to stop letting people or things bug me and just focus on my own groove, and then subconsciously – thankfully – that was stuck in my head for the following month. I think it takes getting completely knocked down physically and emotionally by the work you are doing and the energies you are taking to make you realize it doesn’t have to be that way. You can control your energy levels, we always have the power to change them. Yet, somehow we get swept away by the outside world. There’s too much going on out there for our poor brains and emotionally charged selves to handle and interpret. Once we are concretely aware of this, we should shift and we shut off reception to certain areas of our life. We only have so much energy, and we need to focus it on our own inner life path, not our day job! I genuinely believe that 70% of our attention should be geared towards our long term goals and our dreams, and 30% should be – yes I know its not much – towards our day job. Because even while we are doing our day job, we just need to do what needs to be done, and apart from that there should be free time and energy spent on working towards a bigger goal, something that you really want for yourself. How are you going to get to the next level if you aren’t putting your spiritual and emotional self in the position to receive it?

Also, this approach, basically of being absent minded enough towards your day job to scrape by (but involved in your inner world so you can manifest your dreams), gives you time to grow, and time to build a strong foundation. Patience is key with big dreams, as they take work, and most times years of it before you get to that place that really feels like where you wanted to be. So as I’m saying this, I also acknowledge that while envisioning this dream life is important, enjoying and accepting the journey is key. Deep deep deep DEEP works needs to be done to accept where you are, have compassion for yourself there, before you will energetically be “allowed” by the universe/ thrust forward by it to move towards your dream life. I don’t know why, but the universe doesn’t do many miracles for avoidant people – shadow work sucks but is key too. I recommend listening to self-compassion meditations.

BUT anyway, the main focus of this is just to conserve your energy. I am struggling with it so much and am making turtle -pace progress. But at least its something. Honestly a few days I have worked hard and been able to still have lots of energy at the end – more on this later hopefully of how I did it. Maybe it was because I dropped all the bullshit niceties of society that I so often fall for.

You can be positive and full of fairy dust and flowy, while at the same time not overextending yourself, worrying about others, or feeling the need to be so polite.

Thank-you so much for reading!!! SENDING LOVE AND PEACE AND FREEDOM