I have ADD

I have add, I think it is somewhat adult onset. But I just found out something; it goes away when I am up close and personal with whatever it is I’m trying to pay attention to. But that isn’t fool proof either because I am also nervous around people. But they are just people, so I think that is something I get over. I think I owe it to myself to get over because people are just people and I see them everywhere so I better start getting used to that. I thought of that at the supermarket today when I felt myself trying to protect myself from their energies/ thinking about not wanting to interact with them too much. They are just people and their energy is not going to hurt me. I think that protection/fear definitely comes from hanging out with my parents too much, and trying not to absorb their negative energies. So anyways, professors, at Mount Royal especially, mostly are going to have great energies, so I don’t need to worry about it really, and I can just zone into what I am working on if I sit up at the front. But I guess more than that is that if i just get really close to and really feel whatever it is I am trying to pay attention to, I will really be able to understand and listen. I think that is the main thing with ADD, you need to constantly find points of connection, you need to be asking questions, for it all to really soak in. And you have to be very easy on yourself, because if you have ADD, you are helplessly going to miss things, so you have to accept that, forgive yourself, and just try to kindly resume back into whatever it is you were doing.

It also goes away when I limit the sensory factors that are swarming my brain. Like simply turning the volume down on the tv helped so much. Or what else…. not putting on background music when I do it. Turning off my stupid phone!

I think that’s a good note to leave this on, let’s turn off our phones for a couple hours and enjoy the bliss.